it was my 18th birthday last monday… i am considered adult now… !
i made a BIG decision that day.. .. that is to transfer back to acs sitiawan… winnie n i went to see the principal of sam tet on monday and told him we wanted to transfer back… got the documents signed and then came back to sitiawan right after skol……
my classmates.. now EX… knew it was my birthday and all of them sang me a birthday song during reccess..! i was kinda touched… u know… i didnt really talk to them nor know them… yet they are so nice to me.. of cuz i felt a little sad to leave the skol… but the feeling of joy and peace definately was greater…
the reason why i(we actually) wanted to do so is because i didnt feel i was student of that skol… i felt as if i didnt belong there in ipoh… really… despite the fact that the teachers there are good…they are really good…(except for a few lar..) i just felt that something is lacking…deep down inside my heart..
anyway… when i was in ipoh… i asked myself if i have made the right decision to choose study in sam tet..but now…. when i am back in stw… DAMN IT i ask myself the same question too!!!!!!!!! im freaking out already…! i am soooo afraid that i cant cope with my studies…. there’s no bio tuition teacher in the WHOLE SITIAWAN… and there’s no one teaching maths 2 tuition…. actually i knew that before i came back to stw…but still…i chose to come back….. and i know that i have to bear the consequences cuz i MADE the decision mYSELF…. all i can do now is study REAL hard…..
sigh…sooooo many thoughts are running in my mind………. IM GOING CRAZY!!!!!!!!!
anyway… im really happy that im back in stw cuz i can go to CHURCH everyweek.. yeah i know its not like there’s no church in ipoh… but i just love SITIAWAN WESLEY… plus i can continue my ballet… and perhaps my violin,too….
seriously mixed feelings…… rojak like mad…
QUESTION i’ll ask myself everyday : WHY AM I NOT AS SMART AS CHANG YUNG,KELVIN LIM, AND CLERENCE???
calculator got stolen today…in SCHOOL…! gosh..that made me even more @##@%#$^$@^%$!^$&^%@^ now…!!!